Sense of Belongings..

I bought this book in 2007, guess what? I haven't finish reading it! Half way though.. The reason? Because the font is quite small, not really suitable for my short-sighted eyes. Awakening Intuition-Using your Mind-Body network for Insight and Healing by Dr. Mona Lisa Schulz.


I always think I have this 'six-sense' or some people might call it 'instict'. Ya, I do have it. I've noticed I had it way back during my Uni time. 8 out of 10 things I felt, came true. Started from there I developed an interest in exploring my 'instict'. Everytime I go to bookstore I unhesitantly go to New Age Section, looking in between of the shelves, a books about 'instict'. Because of budget restriction of being a Uni student back then, I would just sat, flipped through and read few interesting pages and put it back on the shelf where it belonged.


And since now I have a steady income on my own, I owned few New Age books. And this book is the interesting ones. It teaches you everyday situations where it brings you to realization that your body basically telling you how well they are. What we should do is just listening to what our body tell us and using it as protection or a method of knowing what's wrong with it.


One phrase that catches my attention was "Research has shown that women who has close relationships with men actually have more regular periods and fewer problems with fertility. It appears, believe or not, that something in male armpit sweat helps regulate the menstrual cycle. Apparently, even something potentially offensive, like body odour, has biochemical usefulness in helping us bond to one another". This is what I would like to call Sense of Belongings. And it's very very true.


Whenever I feel down and sad, I am sure looking for something comfortable, something that can makes me feel better again. Something that can bring me back to life. Something that I belong to.. When my partner with me, he hold me tight, all the problems collapsed and I can go through almost anything. Because when I smell his scent, the safety bond developes. And I feel safe again.


Whenever I cry, my Fat Orange Cat will definitely come to me and comfort me. Smelling his thick orange fur and hearing his endless pur to me, is priceless. Surprisingly, as if an angel taking over me, I will stop crying and at the same time telling him that "I am ok, don't worry about me, I'll stop crying now.." And his pur continues...


And again, the Sense of Belongings situation happens again when I'm goin to bed. I can't sleep without my 'bantal busuk' (smelly pillow). You know, your favourite pillow where you sniff its signature or some kind significant smell and you basically breathing through it till you fall asleep. Ya, that's what I'm talking about. It can be your favourite pillow or blanket or even the bed itself. Like my partner, he insists on keeping the same bedspread as long as it can be on there, regardless how smelly and dirty it can be without ever changing it. The reason being is whenever the bedspread being changed, he's having tough time to fall asleep and it is not something preferable. He lost his sense of belongings. Funny and dirty at the same time, eh?


Is this Sense of Belongings is good? I have no answer. But I know it is something 'must haves' in life. And I know I can loose it, not in million years.

Too much heat!

It's been very very hot for the last couple of days, and it makes me L.A.Z.Y!!
Just lying around watching my fav prog on tv again and again and again. I wonder why do I never feel bored watching reruns of some of the tv shows? I knew which part of what, when will I laugh of the stupid jokes, who's doing what, those kind of things..

Maybe we just being so 'settled' of some of the things in our life. You know, it's like a routine, something familiar, so we are so comfortable of having 'those' without ever wanna think what's going to happen if the 'priviledge' of having 'those' being taken away.. Which I can't imagine!! I know it gonna be hard but isn't it part of the life? One day you have it, the next day you don't.

In fact, being 'settled' in your life isn't something good.. Yet, it can be something good though.. Well, it is just my opinion.

Not good? ... Well, when those 'settled things' being taken away from your life, you will definitely feel out of a limb. You will feel your life or anything you do wouldn't be enough, it just incomplete. You wouldn't know how or where to start or even to finish it. The solution, you might want to find a replacement of it. You going extra miles to replace it because finding a replacement never been easy. You will expect something better than the previous one, and when it's not, you never going to call it a replacement. When it can't be called a replacement, your expectation becomes higher, you tend to compare, not to compromise. And you might be thinking, "Why on earth should I settle for something less when I had the best?". Having no goals to achieve is not a preferable option. It's absolute NO. So in a way it's something good which push you to be better and to have better things in life. It's like motivator or a pusher for you to go further.


Good ones? ... When you settled for something you tend not to expect for something more. You grateful for what you have and you take thing as it is. Your life just like a stagnant water. No major changes, just a sweet soft blow of a wind on a surface. And you just happy living in plain small life. You know, like driving your first car you bought 15 years ago. You never think of having a new car nor to replace it. As long as it can move, carry you from Point A to Point B, hardly giving you any prob, you settled.


So which one am I?.. I think a little bit of both. I love to keep something I own forever, without any question of losing it yet I am not a settled type. I always want something better because as what I always tell myself "I DESERVE ALL THE BEST IN LIFE".


So tell me, how about yours?

When Fat Orange Cat starts to write...

You might wonder, why Fat Orange Cat..? Am I fat?... Or orange...? Nah...

Trust me, I am totally the opposites! Skinny and off course I am not orange. Fat Orange Cat, my cat is!





I always wonder how does it feel seeing world through cat's eyes... Their says and perspectives about what's goin' on around them... I'm a passionate kind of person... and I do believe animals share the same feeling... They can't tell us but they do feel whenever we passionate about them. And my fat Orange Cat is definitely the luckiest pet around (and applause to all pet lover around the world!). What an easy life he's living in.. Sleep, eat, play, pee and poop! That's it! Sometimes, whenever there's a dark heavy clouds and occasional storm blasting my life, I do wish I am just a cat.... The needs to shoosh away those dark clouds and storm is "nil."





But still, I am thankful for the blessed life I'm living in. It's not so easy life though but I am thankful.